Arid Land

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I had a long, intuitive conversation with the sold soul of someone I used to care about. I had many questions to ask this sold soul…. questions that had been left unanswered, while Ego, the ruler of this soul, was preparing a perfect pitch to sell it. This “intuitive”dialog I’m about to share with you, as the description suggests, occured at a place I visit very often. This place is my intuition….. and here’s how it went:

me:

some people feel
some others think
some use their logic
some instinct

sold soul:

I subscribed to the belief that Ego was the head of everything, and now I am heading towards an abyss of nothing.

me:

some trust their heart
some trust their mind
some trust their vision
yet they’re blind

sold soul:

Ego made me blind to many things but lent me perfect vision for money… only to my detriment!

me:

some people listen
others don’t
some will remember
some just won’t

sold soul:

Ego was too busy seeking importance and pushed me to skip listening to you and my own intuition.

me:

some people are
like arid land
nothing will grow in them
they’re sand

sold soul:

This is the picture of what I became…..I took Ego’s calculated projections to tell you not to expect any growth……… by never, at the latest.!

me:

some find things good
some find things great
some tell you now
some are afraid

sold soul:

Ego refrained from appreciating all the blessings around and fed me with a dark pessimism that was intimidated by your bright, positive light!

me:


some know and say it
others wait
some insinuate
some state

sold soul:

Ego, my tyrannical ruler, did not allow me to state the truth, for keeping you in the dark was keeping it on its high horse.

me:

some want to be
where good things are
some go and wish
upon a star

sold soul:

Ego envied your bright light in silence and kept me away from that very light that is now urging me to seek my “dark night”.

me:

some say it loud
some say it clear
some have a thought
that’s not to hear

sold soul:

I repeatedly submitted to Ego in its manipulation mode, not letting you in on many things.

me:

some play for time
make others wait
to see them doubt
and hesitate

sold soul:

You had every reason to trust that my ruler, Ego, was a strategic liar and wanted me to keep you in a limbo by lying to you.

me:

some are a pal
some are a friend
some mean to be
some just pretend

sold soul:

Meanwhile, this is how Ego was making some important connections: Hi…I’m the Chief Officer of Dishonesty and Vice President of Pretense…..let’s exchange our lies and create a joint-VULTURE!

me:

some can just look
right in the eyes
they know the truth
but they tell lies

sold soul:

I allowed Ego to eloquently articulate lies through my teeth……You were easy to deceive because you trusted me.

me:

some see a face
ignore the head
just like the book
they never read

sold soul:

Bound by Ego’s very low EQ, I acknowledged the book’s nice cover and paid no heed to its content and the depth and authenticity of what it had to say and offer!

me:

some seem to be
in full control
but deep inside
they play a role

sold soul:

In submission, I watched Ego practicing its fake composure and demeanor which was not in alignment with my purpose.

me:

some want to look
like they don’t care
pretend they’re calm
inside the flare

sold soul:

Burning by defeat and loss, Ego is now keeping a poker face to maintain its superiority….and I’m no longer there to help save it from itself!

me:

some fill their time
with this and that
thinking they’re happy
but they’re sad

sold soul:

In sadness and remorse, I watch Ego tapping into its last resort “BUSYness”, so no one can see that it’s unable to pursue HAPPYness

me:

some cover tracks
they’ve left behind them
thinking that others
will not find them

sold soul:

Convinced of its high IQ, Ego believed no one would find the books and see the tracks….it maliciously cooked and washed them.

me:

some look so calm
on the outside
what’s burning them
they now must hide

sold soul:

Ego is determined not to let others see the hell it has created.

me:

some cannot be
vulnerable
to them it’s not
honorable

sold soul:

Ego sold me, its wise counsel, in exchange for money, its sole object of pursuit and consolation.

me:

some never say
just what they mean
filthy with lies
yet look so clean

sold soul:

Ego maintained that conscience belongd to an obsolete generation, and updated to digital, after selling me.

me:

some think it’s best
to keep it locked
until one day
they run amok

sold soul:

It pains me to see Ego struggling to keep its mighty image while tortured by the demons screaming inside!

me:

some hide their urge
to say it loud
to voice their thoughts
to share their doubts

sold soul:

No one knows what Ego is going through after discovering that it sold everything that meant something in exchange for nothing that meant anything..

me:

some think no one
will figure out
just who they are
what they’re about

sold soul:

In my absence, Ego’s deep bond with money is making it a complete alien to me, its sold advisor.

me:

some choose the dark
instead of sun
then they get lost
it’s no more fun

sold soul:

Ego is still oblivious to how I am crying for help!! It put me in a very dark place by cutting the cord to the light!

me:

some arid lands
will die in drought
some might be saved
by a rainy cloud!

lost soul:

Is there a title recovery on a sold soul?……Ego was always afraid of your intuition and called you a witch….but can you please tell me if there is room for salvage?

me: I rest my case.

I am not sure how to exactly describe the way this dialog made me feel. All I can say is that when it was over, my own soul, my own wise counsel encouraged me to continue visiting the place I feel very connected to, i.e. my intuition, and appreciate my very clean place called my “conscience”, where I can sleep like a baby.

CLOSURE.

“Id quod circumiret, circumiveniat”….

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